Last week I was kicked off Facebook. The night before that happened, I had written in my diary how tired of social media I was, how doom scrolling was starting to overtake my life. For the first time ever, I was letting political posts truly upset me, to the point I would get off the social media app in a bad mood. I would share some political post and people would argue with me, mostly by saying the person mentioned is not a person worth listening to. Or, I would be told I don’t understand the bigger picture. One person said I should pray to see the actual truth, and not to trust “mainstream” media. When a person discredits actual information by calling the presenter “mainstream media” I don’t really know how to respond. We can’t trust them to tell us what is actually happening because they are professionals and their job is to report the news? It’s a version of “never trust the experts” that people who don’t vaccinate, or don’t trust science research like to use. It worries me and I am at a loss to know how to respond. The thing about experts is they can be verified.
Anyway, in my diary, on the same page, I wrote how I was beginning to hate facebook, I was tired of the control it had on my life. The next day I wrote the following:
“Last night I got on facebook and saw my account had been blocked. Someone else had tried to log in. I don’t know my password and my email address has changed since I joined facebook years ago. So, I went outside with my coffee and the dog. It was chilly, 38 degrees and beautiful. The early sunshine lit up the lawn and the pine trees behind our yard. The dog is so happy she ran in circles, faster and faster. She ran with a long stick, dropped it, and ran even faster. It was beautiful and fun. Maybe I won’t fix facebook, it has ruled my life too long.”
Earlier I watched the President’s speech to Congress, but I couldn’t take, both his blustering “look how good I am” and how rotten the world is after the evil Biden and radical dems destruction of our “very beautiful country.” When he started demonizing teachers for their radial agendas I had to walk out of the room. I remembered my dad mentioning the Wildflower hiking group, which is a mother and daughter hiking the AT. The joy they reflected, the exhaustion and the cold, as well as the love of nature and of each other, all these things warmed my heart and improved my mood. The daughter kept trying to make snow balls out of the dry Georgia snow. She tossed one at the camera, and I laughed with them. I can focus on the things that upset me, or I can enjoy nature, hiking and family fun in my own life. The videos reminded me of the enjoyment my kids and I have for simple adventures.
My walking was very slow this week. My husband had shoulder surgery, and most of my time has been involved with taking care of him and things around the house. I walked around the neighborhood, and totaled 9 1/2 miles in one week. This is the same amount of miles an actual AT hiker would do on a slow day on the trail. It looks like I would be close to Standing Indian Shelter, another place I have day hiked when I lived in GA.
I have been reading lots of books, and I recommend Louise Penny, Braiding Sweetgrass and Serviceberry by Robin Wall Kimmerer, and Read Dangerously by Azar Nafisi. The last book shows how we can learn so much through reading. We can develop empathy for others, understanding how people reach decisions, why they feel and think the way they do, and how destructive thinking can lead us to some bad places. She lists so many books as worth reading, more than I will ever have time for. Some I have already read, like Fahrenheit 451, Between the World and Me, and others I want to read like works by James Baldwin, and Toni Morrison. We were put on this earth to grow and learn, to help others and to make the world a better place. Books help us to learn and then do these things. Have fun, walk, read and hope for a better world!